Where does the ride go from here?

Tomorrow is a big day I guess. We will find out what the CT scan & MRI are showing as of last week. I say I guess because I'm not really sure what it will all mean. We've been carried by God's grace, strength & miracles so far and I'm not sure that will change irregardless of what these show. We are praying for something positive but yet preparing ourselves in case it isn't. That's why my title is "Where does the ride go from here?" These last couple weeks have been really hard on Ric. The mouth sores returned so he's had a hard time eating & talking. They are much better today and he ate alot more than he has for awhile. He tells me that once they are fully gone then he's eating everything in sight! He's really wiped out most of the time but that apparently is called chemo fatigue. Today was a much better day than it has been for awhile so I am hoping that we are starting to move past the horrible chemo effects. Again I can't imagine if he was doing a more toxic higher dosage chemo as this has been a nightmare. My husband is one of the strongest people I know and he does not complain at all. I know that I could not be as nice as he has been while going through this. Oh he has snapped at me but only because I deserved it as I was hounding him to do something. But most of the time that was me becoming fearful that he needed to do something or he was going to get worse. It took my very wonderful daughter Holly to put me back into perspective that Ric needed to be the one to do what was needed and that I could not force him to do those things. Of course that would mean I would totally have to relinquish any form of control that I thought I had and since I'm a control freak (less than I used to be really) it was very hard for me to do that. I still struggle with it at times. But it's more that I cannot imagine my life without him and that totally freaks me out. I was able to get some Me time these past few days thanks to my brother Rusty. I'm sure Ric was thankful too! Also heard good news this morning about my sister Becky - her lymph nodes and cancer markers are clear - praise God about that! So asking for prayers for some positive news tomorrow, the mouth sores to GO AWAY, for Ric to continuing gaining strength each day and for peace & comfort for us both.